Had 3 of these today.
The Basket Ball Player
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I know I diddnt really belong here anymore but something drew me to this place. As I walked toward the top of the stadium I could hear the excited chanting of the people waiting for the game to start.
Suddenly it got very quiet and I guess someone had seen me.
I raised my right hand high... pinky and thunb extended and yelled out
"Victory"
And then I turned and walked away....
On a plane
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I dont fly much these days and my expectations arent high.
But for some reason an older lady decided to sit by me. I helped her put her bag into the overhead.
We talk for a while.... just small talk.
The lady placed a finger on a red patch on my arm an ask what this is.
As I started to explain that it was psoriasis... she just got up and took her bag and walked away.
I wanted to explain that you cant catch it....
A young man in the seat in front leaned over his seat and started hitting me and told me to leave his mammy alone.
I grabbed his hand and bent his finger back until he was clearly in pain. I told him to just leave me alone or I was going to start breaking fingers.
Then again.. I was alone.
The Dco
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I am the damage control officer on a USN fast attack submarine. I dont have a lot of details but we found ourselves on the bottom with the reactor scammed , the air almost gone and a choice to be made.
We have 2 escape hatchs but only one was still working.... at least we thought it was working... It had taken some damage.
I donned my stienky hood , got it charged and the old man gave me a ball peen hammer.
"Son... I hope that you wont need this but here it is.... just in case. Good luck and we are counting on you and Dont forget to close the outter hatch before you go to the surface".
The I was in thelockout.... and it was filling with water.
I tryed to turn the wheel but it was jammed. I hit it with the hammer a few times and it slowly started to turn.
I found myself outside the sub and was closing the hatch , but it wouldnt close! Nothing worked. The hatch had sprung and my options had narrowed to zero.
I left the hammer by the hatch and started to accend. Most people using the hood yell out ho ho ho to equalize the pressure in thier lungs but I went up the whole way screaming.
Arrived on the surface to find an empty sea and my last chance of getting help for those still below shattered and I just cried.
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Lonelyness , fear , failure and then some.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
Strange Dream
Cant really call this one a nightmare but thier was a dual perspective that can be hard to understand.
This starts in a large dark room where I am the President of the USA and my self and my first lady are meeting with the president of the soviet peoples and his first lady.
There are times when I am both presidents.
It seems that we have decided on what would have been a most monumentus treaty that would have brought our countries closer then ever before.
We were in the process of recieving a massive data dump from the USSR and it was suddenly cut off.
There was a confusing period where both president were seperated and the leader of the USSR was isolated... but in the end we came together and I offered him not only the protection of the of the leader of the free world , but that of the American peoples.
There were other details... most lost.... but there was the feeling of resistence of the old gaurd in the USSR... and perhaps some in the USA. A chance that would have been well for all peoples... results in status quo....
I awoke.
Not just a bit... confused.
This starts in a large dark room where I am the President of the USA and my self and my first lady are meeting with the president of the soviet peoples and his first lady.
There are times when I am both presidents.
It seems that we have decided on what would have been a most monumentus treaty that would have brought our countries closer then ever before.
We were in the process of recieving a massive data dump from the USSR and it was suddenly cut off.
There was a confusing period where both president were seperated and the leader of the USSR was isolated... but in the end we came together and I offered him not only the protection of the of the leader of the free world , but that of the American peoples.
There were other details... most lost.... but there was the feeling of resistence of the old gaurd in the USSR... and perhaps some in the USA. A chance that would have been well for all peoples... results in status quo....
I awoke.
Not just a bit... confused.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Nightmares continue
Last night.....
The world was a nearly perfect place and we all lived in modern , clean cities that we though were safe. We were happy and could follow our studies as we wanted. The city was covered with an energy shield of sorts and people diddnt walk.. they floated around.
The dream was in full technicolor.
One day there was a message on all the public access terminals saying that this city would be destroyed perhaps in hours or in mins. We were free to go on with our lives provided we diddnt try to leave.
Those who did were brutaly killed. (passing over this detail)
The city just vanished.
I guess I had to lay in bed for an hour before I was able to get up.
The world was a nearly perfect place and we all lived in modern , clean cities that we though were safe. We were happy and could follow our studies as we wanted. The city was covered with an energy shield of sorts and people diddnt walk.. they floated around.
The dream was in full technicolor.
One day there was a message on all the public access terminals saying that this city would be destroyed perhaps in hours or in mins. We were free to go on with our lives provided we diddnt try to leave.
Those who did were brutaly killed. (passing over this detail)
The city just vanished.
I guess I had to lay in bed for an hour before I was able to get up.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Not all my dreams are bad
Its been too long since I have been in here and this is becomming more of a personal log then a blog.
a week or so ago I had the following dream:
It was raining and was mixxed in this some sleet. I was walking toward a bus that was going to stop at the station. But It diddnt stop. As I stood there cold and wet A yound lady with short blond hair came dancing from somewhere near the back of the bus. She was wearing something that looked like a terry cloth robe. She danced around a bit and dryed me off and dressed me in her robe.
I awoke.
a week or so ago I had the following dream:
It was raining and was mixxed in this some sleet. I was walking toward a bus that was going to stop at the station. But It diddnt stop. As I stood there cold and wet A yound lady with short blond hair came dancing from somewhere near the back of the bus. She was wearing something that looked like a terry cloth robe. She danced around a bit and dryed me off and dressed me in her robe.
I awoke.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Bad One today
I got up to take a pee and I guess it was just too warm and I had a hard time getting to sleep. But when I did....
Debby and I seemed to be getting up late. We were going to call our boss's and tell them to expect us late but the phones wouldnt work. A few kind people offered to let us use thier cells , but there was something wrong here.... all the cells had number 1-4 and zero.
Got a ride to a pay phone.... but it diddnt work either.. I went into a resturant (a mexican place). Asked for some change for the phone. The change was mexican! But it did work in the phone... But then I realized im in mexico...
I spent the rest of the dream just wondering around looking for the escape button. Diddnt find it and even after I awoke... it took about an hour to recover enough to get out of bed.
Debby and I seemed to be getting up late. We were going to call our boss's and tell them to expect us late but the phones wouldnt work. A few kind people offered to let us use thier cells , but there was something wrong here.... all the cells had number 1-4 and zero.
Got a ride to a pay phone.... but it diddnt work either.. I went into a resturant (a mexican place). Asked for some change for the phone. The change was mexican! But it did work in the phone... But then I realized im in mexico...
I spent the rest of the dream just wondering around looking for the escape button. Diddnt find it and even after I awoke... it took about an hour to recover enough to get out of bed.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Confusing
I am not quite myself today leading me to believe that the dream I am about to relate to you may have something to do with me mixxing meds.
I seem to be sitting in the office of a gas station (local and well known) , they dont seem to be put out by the fact im just sitting there. I think I bought a pen an a drink of some kind. After a while I got up and went to get into my car. I drive a gray honda. Bit I was supprised to find that my key worked in a white honda.
Judging from the course I set I seemed to want to get to my parents house. Unusual as I live about 7 miles down the highway.
After a bit I seem to have parked outside a building with huge windows. I enter it and find women with gowns and men in suits drinking from small glass's. In short a party of sorts. I wonder around and I have the feeling im trying to get to the other end of the building. I exit the building and as I pass out the door security catchs up with me. I couldnt seem to talk... or let him know that I was just trying to get home. The security officer asked why I had been there... did I maybe want a piece of cake or something to drink? He seemed to think I was homeless and I couldnt talk and let him know that I really diddnt know why I was there. He went back in side and I guess I found my car and I found myself at another gas station with an odd collection of items I guess I wanted to purchase. One of the packages fell open and for some reason the checker wanted to charge me more for it. Total over 800$. I told her that I am confused but not stupid and there is no way Im going to pay 800$ for about 15$ worth of items. I walked off.
I guess I woke up about now... but the confusion diddnt end with the dream. I still feel kind of confused. If I think about things before I act i get by. But there is a small part of me that is super clear. I could hear Debby getting ready to make coffee and I called out that I want Hazel nut. She yelled back that all we had was moca... I replied that she would have to open the maxwell house coffee in the cabinet and it is hazel nut.
I lay in bed for about an hour until I felt that I was mentaly able to deal with real life. Things are still a bit off center but its getting slowly better.
I seem to be sitting in the office of a gas station (local and well known) , they dont seem to be put out by the fact im just sitting there. I think I bought a pen an a drink of some kind. After a while I got up and went to get into my car. I drive a gray honda. Bit I was supprised to find that my key worked in a white honda.
Judging from the course I set I seemed to want to get to my parents house. Unusual as I live about 7 miles down the highway.
After a bit I seem to have parked outside a building with huge windows. I enter it and find women with gowns and men in suits drinking from small glass's. In short a party of sorts. I wonder around and I have the feeling im trying to get to the other end of the building. I exit the building and as I pass out the door security catchs up with me. I couldnt seem to talk... or let him know that I was just trying to get home. The security officer asked why I had been there... did I maybe want a piece of cake or something to drink? He seemed to think I was homeless and I couldnt talk and let him know that I really diddnt know why I was there. He went back in side and I guess I found my car and I found myself at another gas station with an odd collection of items I guess I wanted to purchase. One of the packages fell open and for some reason the checker wanted to charge me more for it. Total over 800$. I told her that I am confused but not stupid and there is no way Im going to pay 800$ for about 15$ worth of items. I walked off.
I guess I woke up about now... but the confusion diddnt end with the dream. I still feel kind of confused. If I think about things before I act i get by. But there is a small part of me that is super clear. I could hear Debby getting ready to make coffee and I called out that I want Hazel nut. She yelled back that all we had was moca... I replied that she would have to open the maxwell house coffee in the cabinet and it is hazel nut.
I lay in bed for about an hour until I felt that I was mentaly able to deal with real life. Things are still a bit off center but its getting slowly better.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Special mention
This dream is hard to classify and so it earns a special mention.
2 nights ago I had return to sleep after draining the beast. I fell asleep pretty quickly and I found myself walking down a street carrying a large tray of some kind of salad. After a while I came on a couch and sitting on this couch were:
Lucy
Ricky
Etthal
Fred
Yep.. I love lucy :)
We talked a bit and they tried to take my salad... I work up in a bit of a struggle. GF told me to take it easy.
2 nights ago I had return to sleep after draining the beast. I fell asleep pretty quickly and I found myself walking down a street carrying a large tray of some kind of salad. After a while I came on a couch and sitting on this couch were:
Lucy
Ricky
Etthal
Fred
Yep.. I love lucy :)
We talked a bit and they tried to take my salad... I work up in a bit of a struggle. GF told me to take it easy.
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