Friday, December 5, 2014

Can you help this old sailor?

I cant get the wave object to work here...

Can you help this old sailor? Pls click the link.

http://www.gofundme.com/i2qjx8/

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Dreams indictated loss of control

Just this am I had a horrible dream I couldnt exit and then suddenly I was out.

Started out working midnight shift at a sunoco gas station. The person leaving shorted me on my opening bank. I spent time over and over trying to count the money.

Suddenly all lanes were full and I couldnt even begin to keep up and people starting leaving.

3 girls in an Suv wanted to trade a carosel of slides for gas , hinting i would like it. I took it and said I could only give them 5$ gas. I set the slides on top of the pump and pumped the gas and later I noticed the slides were gone.

More and more people pulling in now and Im hopelessly back logged.

Some of the people seem to be pumping thier own gas. In the circumstances not a big problem.

Then suddenly the pumps were empty!

People got thier gas without paying!

An old hippie pulled in with a small track with an odd cycendracal gas tank. He started to pump and then demanded I hold it.

Cars are stacking up again....

It goes on like this.... and then I did awake.

Sailor

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanksgiving dreams

I had to get up start the turkey , set the alarm and get up and put the yams in the oven.

I had three dreams in this period.

1) I was part of some sort of rescue party. I was sure I found the person we were trying to rescue but no one else could hear the heartbeat I heard... I woke up about then and found that my head was resting on my left arm and the heart beat was mine. must have been 120 bpm...

2) This one switched perspective twice.

First as a young women being very concerned with the safty of a child and fearing a group of men seemingly following... Climbing out a back window with the child because I(she) percieved that going to the nieghbors house would be safer....
Diddnt make it and perception switched to the child and continues toward the other house. Almost there and then attacked by something like wolves.... the rest is unclear and I woke up.

3) I found myself as one of many at a wake for a person I diddnt even know. I diddnt know any of the others. The food and drink was good. After a time I became aware that something wasnt right. We diddnt seem able to leave the wake but oddly we were able to go outside. Began to suspect that we we are not on Earth.

Lost power... the place went dark. Went scouting and found several Human like being's some walking and some driving crossover suv's. It was very difficult to fight them but they could be subdued or even killed.

I found myself under one of the suv's and there was a box with smaller boxes under it. Looks like smaller monsters.... I pushed something rodlike and sharp into one of the smaller boxes and the creature within dies....leading me to jump to the conclusion that we had to do was make a hole in the creatures and they would die...

I awoke.

Hope you have/had a great thanksgiving.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Terror Starts at home (strange dream)

Last night I had this very strange dream.

I seemed to be holding 2 box's. Both were some kind of bomb. I placed the first outside of a building and cut off the power to it. I talked my way past security and placed the second bomb inside the building where it would do max structural damage. As I walked away it exploded behind me.

For me quite odd.... I generaly more the cowboy then the indian.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Dreamette's (small dreams)

Had 3 of these today.

The Basket Ball Player
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I know I diddnt really belong here anymore but something drew me to this place. As I walked toward the top of the stadium I could hear the excited chanting of the people waiting for the game to start.

Suddenly it got very quiet and I guess someone had seen me.

I raised my right hand high... pinky and thunb extended and yelled out

"Victory"

And then I turned and walked away....

On a plane
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I dont fly much these days and my expectations arent high.

But for some reason an older lady decided to sit by me. I helped her put her bag into the overhead.

We talk for a while.... just small talk.

The lady placed a finger on a red patch on my arm an ask what this is.

As I started to explain that it was psoriasis... she just got up and took her bag and walked away.

I wanted to explain that you cant catch it....

A young man in the seat in front leaned over his seat and started hitting me and told me to leave his mammy alone.

I grabbed his hand and bent his finger back until he was clearly in pain. I told him to just leave me alone or I was going to start breaking fingers.

Then again.. I was alone.

The Dco
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I am the damage control officer on a USN fast attack submarine. I dont have a lot of details but we found ourselves on the bottom with the reactor scammed , the air almost gone and a choice to be made.

We have 2 escape hatchs but only one was still working.... at least we thought it was working... It had taken some damage.

I donned my stienky hood , got it charged and the old man gave me a ball peen hammer.

"Son... I hope that you wont need this but here it is.... just in case. Good luck and we are counting on you and Dont forget to close the outter hatch before you go to the surface".

The I was in thelockout.... and it was filling with water.

I tryed to turn the wheel but it was jammed. I hit it with the hammer a few times and it slowly started to turn.

I found myself outside the sub and was closing the hatch , but it wouldnt close! Nothing worked. The hatch had sprung and my options had narrowed to zero.

I left the hammer by the hatch and started to accend. Most people using the hood yell out ho ho ho to equalize the pressure in thier lungs but I went up the whole way screaming.

Arrived on the surface to find an empty sea and my last chance of getting help for those still below shattered and I just cried.

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Lonelyness , fear , failure and then some.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Strange Dream

Cant really call this one a nightmare but thier was a dual perspective that can be hard to understand.

This starts in a large dark room where I am the President of the USA and my self and my first lady are meeting with the president of the soviet peoples and his first lady.

There are times when I am both presidents.

It seems that we have decided on what would have been a most monumentus treaty that would have brought our countries closer then ever before.

We were in the process of recieving a massive data dump from the USSR and it was suddenly cut off.

There was a confusing period where both president were seperated and the leader of the USSR was isolated... but in the end we came together and I offered him not only the protection of the of the leader of the free world , but that of the American peoples.

There were other details... most lost.... but there was the feeling of resistence of the old gaurd in the USSR... and perhaps some in the USA. A chance that would have been well for all peoples... results in status quo....

I awoke.

Not just a bit... confused.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Nightmares continue

Last night.....

The world was a nearly perfect place and we all lived in modern , clean cities that we though were safe. We were happy and could follow our studies as we wanted. The city was covered with an energy shield of sorts and people diddnt walk.. they floated around.

The dream was in full technicolor.

One day there was a message on all the public access terminals saying that this city would be destroyed perhaps in hours or in mins. We were free to go on with our lives provided we diddnt try to leave.

Those who did were brutaly killed. (passing over this detail)

The city just vanished.

I guess I had to lay in bed for an hour before I was able to get up.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Not all my dreams are bad

Its been too long since I have been in here and this is becomming more of a personal log then a blog.

a week or so ago I had the following dream:

It was raining and was mixxed in this some sleet. I was walking toward a bus that was going to stop at the station. But It diddnt stop. As I stood there cold and wet A yound lady with short blond hair came dancing from somewhere near the back of the bus. She was wearing something that looked like a terry cloth robe. She danced around a bit and dryed me off and dressed me in her robe.

I awoke.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Bad One today

I got up to take a pee and I guess it was just too warm and I had a hard time getting to sleep. But when I did....

Debby and I seemed to be getting up late. We were going to call our boss's and tell them to expect us late but the phones wouldnt work. A few kind people offered to let us use thier cells , but there was something wrong here.... all the cells had number 1-4 and zero.

Got a ride to a pay phone.... but it diddnt work either.. I went into a resturant (a mexican place). Asked for some change for the phone. The change was mexican! But it did work in the phone... But then I realized im in mexico...

I spent the rest of the dream just wondering around looking for the escape button. Diddnt find it and even after I awoke... it took about an hour to recover enough to get out of bed.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Confusing

I am not quite myself today leading me to believe that the dream I am about to relate to you may have something to do with me mixxing meds.

I seem to be sitting in the office of a gas station (local and well known) , they dont seem to be put out by the fact im just sitting there. I think I bought a pen an a drink of some kind. After a while I got up and went to get into my car. I drive a gray honda. Bit I was supprised to find that my key worked in a white honda.

Judging from the course I set I seemed to want to get to my parents house. Unusual as I live about 7 miles down the highway.

After a bit I seem to have parked outside a building with huge windows. I enter it and find women with gowns and men in suits drinking from small glass's. In short a party of sorts. I wonder around and I have the feeling im trying to get to the other end of the building. I exit the building and as I pass out the door security catchs up with me. I couldnt seem to talk... or let him know that I was just trying to get home. The security officer asked why I had been there... did I maybe want a piece of cake or something to drink? He seemed to think I was homeless and I couldnt talk and let him know that I really diddnt know why I was there. He went back in side and I guess I found my car and I found myself at another gas station with an odd collection of items I guess I wanted to purchase. One of the packages fell open and for some reason the checker wanted to charge me more for it. Total over 800$. I told her that I am confused but not stupid and there is no way Im going to pay 800$ for about 15$ worth of items. I walked off.

I guess I woke up about now... but the confusion diddnt end with the dream. I still feel kind of confused. If I think about things before I act i get by. But there is a small part of me that is super clear. I could hear Debby getting ready to make coffee and I called out that I want Hazel nut. She yelled back that all we had was moca... I replied that she would have to open the maxwell house coffee in the cabinet and it is hazel nut.

I lay in bed for about an hour until I felt that I was mentaly able to deal with real life. Things are still a bit off center but its getting slowly better.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Special mention

This dream is hard to classify and so it earns a special mention.

2 nights ago I had return to sleep after draining the beast. I fell asleep pretty quickly and I found myself walking down a street carrying a large tray of some kind of salad. After a while I came on a couch and sitting on this couch were:

Lucy
Ricky
Etthal
Fred

Yep.. I love lucy :)

We talked a bit and they tried to take my salad... I work up in a bit of a struggle. GF told me to take it easy.

Another Dream

Sometimes its the dreams that are the most harmless that really bother the most.

Last night I had a dream that cycled several times. It envolved some distance and winding up in a hospital. After A while I was able to look at the street signs and think "Yep here I go again".

At one point I was able to control the dream. I caused myself to stop along the way at a supermarket. As I walked through the store it slowly changed into a hospital. An old lady in a walker came over and said this to me "The Dream weaver likes you!" and she walked on an I awoke. But not fully , I spent the next hour of so going in and out of sleep and having dreamett's.

You dont have to be asleep long to dream.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Did I really dream this?

After having gone to bed about 3:30am I awoke about 11am and could not seem to get back to sleep.

I took a Hydroxyzene (for itch) and after a while I fell asleep. The dream I had was well outside my norm.

I was driving a motorcycle.... got gas for it... (I dont drive a motorbike) Scene change for a rural street somewhere. I was driving an old ford van I had sold years ago. Noticed that both ends of the road had been blocked. Appeared to be cardboard. Drove threw.

Motorcycle was in a gas station near the corner.

Approached by a heavy set male who insisted I destroyed 2 gas pumps he had intended to sell on ebay. He was to say the least quite pissed.

I picked up a knife and put it into my back pocket.

We are back in the van and I go to get the bike , its gone.

The same guy told me he took it... I told him to just call the police.

Gave me back the bike... waited for the police.

Want to check my BAL but then suddenly left and we went into the mans house.

Big family all with southern accents... went outside for a walk in the dark , ditched the knife. Went back in.

Wierd family.... little boy walks around yelling "son of a bitc*" and a little girl was playing with a knife.

No one seemed concerned... and oddly enough the family wasnt unfriendly.

A small creature , a cross tween a frog and a hamster was on the floor. It liked being held but it was kinda slimy and furry at the same time.

Still waiting for the police to return.

Out the window the police seem to be storming a building.... they could not get in so they broke the stained glass (it was a church).

Grandpa pa looks at me and says "You could always pay him 20$ a week for the next 20 years".. he is laughing....

somewhere along this time an ambulance came to get a pair of german sherpards who seemed to be having trouble breathing.... I think they died.

As I started to realize that this family really wasnt so differant... I awoke.
It took a while for this dream to stop ringing in my mind....

This is just the barest outline.. it was full technocolor and I was jacked right in.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I did dream last night

Towards the morning I lost most of the details of my dreams last night. I did however scare Debby as I woke up swinging. No Power behind the swings and they tended to slide along the wall but non the less disturbing. I slept the rest of the night facing away from Debby.

Typicaly when this happens I was defending myself in my sleep. This has happened more times then I want to remember.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Things I dont understand

I went down for a bit of a nap about 2 hours ago. I dont think I slept at all but the air comming in from the window fan felt great. I noticed that after a while I could hear a low background rumble and I listened to it for as I lay. As time wore on it got a bit louder and revealed itself to be the edge of a thunder shower.

At almost the exact second the clock turned to midnight we lost power. This by itself dosent bother me and it turned out to be only long enough that I have to reset the clocks on certain devices about the flat.

I consider myself to be a fairly hardy person and a bit of foul weather dosent generaly bother me. Maybe part of it was being alone and then every light in the hood cut out and of course the fan. I suppose it was a bit erie and maybe there was just the slightest edge of fear.

So I got up and came to post on here and check my mail on a few sites.

A Dream

Unlike real life or even fictional writing's a dream dosent have to make sence. I had this one last night and my GF claims I was quite active as I slept.

This dream envolved myself , my GF and her brother.

It seems we had aquired some kind of a job that required us to clean the house of a rather well off person. After completing the job we determined that one of us had left the water running and when we went back it was pretty much as you may expect.

We spent some time cleaning up the water and I told Bob to go and get the other mop. He was gone for much longer then I would have expected and he holding a container of take out chinese food. He indicated that he thought I wanted chinese food.

The scene rapidly changed and we found ourselves in captivity of some asian people. In the dream they seemed chinese and we were slammed into walls and abused in other ways....

Then I awoke.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

My Dreams

Some of my dreams are going to be quite disturbing and in full techno color. I always dream in color.

Have you ever had dream in which you seemed to be awake? This has happened to me several times. I would go to sleep and in my dream seem to be in a more or less normal life but certain inconsistencies give it away. Its interesting to note that while I dream I seem to be able to draw on my entire stored pool of knowlage. And many times its more like watching a tv show.

Whats really strange is when you go to sleep in a dream and wake up in real life. This happens to me all the time. And then at time when I go back to sleep I find myself waking in the same dream world.

Some of my dreams are composed of interlocking level's. They depend in part on the other parts to make them work.

Remember to strap on your seatbelt! Your in for a ride here.

By Way of introduction.

It was a toss up , I could have called this diary of a madman. Well google wasnt a lot of help with the url.

Im Bipolar with some depression tossed in. To some I may seem a bit antisocial. This place is mainly where I will document my dreams. Most in order and some remembered. I will also post some thought's here as I go.

Take a klonopin and join the party.

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